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Day 20: my thoughts on this book

Today is the first day of assigned reading from this book I wrote about the other day. It’s a “soul fast” over forty days. Except it’s actually 56 days: eight weeks with the weekends off for… soul gorging? Soul gluttony? I don’t know.

Anyway. I left the computer open while I read and recorded my thoughts. Here they are. Enjoy.

The book says this is my first day of my “journey to a more authentic life.” Authentic by whose definition? Mine? God’s? The author’s so I buy more of her stuff? And is that her real hair?

Stop being so cynical, Maggie.

First step is self-awareness. That’s actually good. Very zen. I admire that and am working on cultivating that.

Grammatical error. Strike one.

On to the action steps! This looks promising!

First “action step” is a declarative sentence with a question mark at the end. Strike two.

I’m supposed to describe “outstanding” characteristics about myself. Do I have to think big picture, like, “I love animals so much that I eat a vegan diet and voluntarily scrub out kitty litterboxes on Saturday morning”? Or can it be, “I make really good cookies”? Does God appreciate little things like cookie mastery? I’ve always wondered.

“How have you capitalized on those [outstanding characteristics] and harnessed the inherent power of you?” What the hell does that even mean? Like, okay, I know what the words mean, but what is she¬†saying? Do you see why that video made me so mad?!

She wants me to listen to what God is saying to me. Can I get some instruction on listening to God? I still suck at that. Majorly suck. Please, just give me a little how-to. That would be a great action step. One I desperately need.

Wait a second, this is the first time this chapter has mentioned God other than the little epitaph bible verse on the top of the first page! Isn’t this supposed to be God-centered? Where’s God in this? Why is it all about me me me?

Maybe if she mentioned God more I would be reminded to not be so cynical about this book.

…no, I can’t blame her. My attitude is my problem, not hers. Sigh.

Hey! Look! Self awareness!

I’m really hoping I can have a good attitude about this book (or at least keep my attitude in check). I need to get over the empty chatter factor, I think. My love for clear, no-BS God-talk is getting in the way of my appreciating this book. There are some good things in here, I think… just gotta dig to find them.

Which is a disgustingly accurate metaphor for life, am I right?